I ♥ Music

Thursday, March 29, 2007

omg.. i'm like going crazy. they say not to think or worry or stress ourselves too much over SYF. therefore i shall come here to relieve my stress, anxiety, disappointment, what not (:

i feel super sad lah. there's like no one to talk to. ok, there is, but not all the time. i cant keep bottling everything up and end up looking, behaving and acting like a zombie all the time. i dont want to be like Jim. i'm not like Jim!

Music, or rather, my cello, used to be my 'stress-reliever'. now, it has become my 'stress-producer'!! oh wait, my cello was my stress reliever. now i'm using vincent's. that explains it!

i dont know what to think, who to believe, who to turn to. everyone's saying different things, having different point of views and thoughts. everyone has different lines to read between. which one?!! are they really speaking the truth, to scare us, wake us up, or just plain put down. are they merely just saying it to make us feel better, console us cos we know we cant make it anymore, or they really have faith and truly believe in us.

lol i'm going crazy, watching tianshan on youtube over and over again, watching khojj's super solo, listening to the recorded jiguanyu, and all the other CO songs that sounds better than ours.

fantasizing..

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anyway, aside, time for dreams!
i want to be in shicheng! its like so cool lah! haha. today let off at 8PM, went back to CO room and the shicheng people were already there practising. then its like a few people only, cos its, shicheng. and like, imagine you're part of that few people, owning the nice nice CCO badge and cute little white bow tie. haha. I WANT!

i want to go shicheng concert to see the people sing, and see how CO music fits with it. lol. the woman's voice is like super powerful lah. while we were still having jiantao, from the GRANDSTAND, we suddenly heard this super opera-y loud and stong and powerful voice. OMG. it sounded like it came from the parade square lah. but obviously not, it was from CO room. and i think the door was closed, yet it sounded like she was just beside us..

seh.

i dont care, i'm going with mayping. wahahaha.
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wheee!! i'm not doing homework! i've not done my chinese for like how many weeks already can.. i feel super slack and super bad and super evil lah. but i dont want to do! ok ok, i promise, PROMISE, i'll put everything that i owe her in her locker on monday morning. no more delays! but can someone just motivate me to do.. haha.

and i just read on msn health news just now. they said that what adequate sleep makes people thin, and sleep deprivation makes people FAT. are you sure its true? i sleep at like 12-1am everyday, i'm becoming the opposite, so much so that i'm like eating energy bars to keep me alive. LOL.

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i'm sleepy. haha.

do you believe in miracles?
i know i do.
i was a part of a miracle that happened before.
i dont believe we cant make another.
i just hope we are in time for one.

:)