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Wednesday, July 26, 2006

wow.

i managed to clear about 100+ emails from my inbox today, which still contains 200 unread emails.

i HATE reading mails and clearing them. cos mostly are chains.
this started last time cos my computer always had problems and lagged, so reading mails was an absolutely tiresome and troublesome thing to do.

after a while i never opened my emails again.

until now where seeing 300+ unread mails was not unusual.

so it would help GREATLY if you could stop sending me chainletters and let me clear my mails for ONCE.

pleaseandthankyouverymuch.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

wahahaha. ok, so goh jia ying wants to be an underwear model when he grows up. interesting,

but EEW!! hahahaha!!

at least he needs to tone his abs and all first lah, according to ms tan (cme).

imagine if it were samuel.

YUCKS.

his body would be all white and fair, seeing how white and fair he is. eew, so disgusting.

*faints*

***

i pity the government man. they wasted money on building the path across the field that time.

now due to construction, it's most probably gonna be demolished as they built yet ANOTHER one right next to the condo, in between it and the construction site.

wl, they are like purposely trying to make me feel short only lah!

i know i'm like short and cannot grow anymore and would stay like this forever, but you all also dont need to overshadow me and make me look super small by building it right in between 2 tall buildings right. and the path is like so narrow!

my advise, anyone claustrophobic better not cross.

if you really have to, remember to bring along an oxygen tank in case you die halfway.

choychoychoy!

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

i hate walking across the path home after school. its like walking into death zone, or a minefield when you step across the barriers and into the fenced up field. all the huge machineries and large tall piles of rock, sand and concret on both sides of the path. so menacing.

***

when i ignore you you ask for forgiveness
when i finally talk to you you say its a dream and you have to wake up to reality
when you ask me to go and i ask for details you keep answering for ME, giving excuses for ME that i wont go.

JUST WHAT DO YOU WANT?!

***

Antonio, i am married to a wife
which is as dear to me as life itself;
but life itself, my wife, and all the world
are not with me esteemed above thy life.
i would lose all, ay sacrifice them all
here to this devil, to deliver you.

do not worry, people out there
i am not gay, nor am i les.
this is just my lit role play
the lit roleplay where i play Bassanio.
maybe i should explain more clearly
that this is just my favourite speech
that Bassanio gives to prove his friendship
his deep friendship to Antonio.

i rhyme! ok, or sort of. but it sounds like a poem, i think. haha.

this is roseline's FAVOURITE sentence, not just in the book but her life:

A Daniel still say I, a second Daniel!
I thank thee, Jew, for teaching me that word.

wahahaha!! she thanks Shylock for introducing her to Daniel.

wow. that must be the one thing that Shylock does right. heheh.

***

haha. symmeter is so fun!!

its this programme where you upload pictures of faces, like yours, and they tell you how symmetrical your face is.

and supposedly, the more symmetrical it is, the more good looking you are.
but i dont believe.

anyway... her are some interesting readings i got. hehe. enjoy!

mrs wong - 83%
ms tan - 85%
liu ls - 87%?!
mr gan - 86%!!
tan wah chwee - 97%!!!!
guo ls - 85% (and mayping thinks he's shuai)
mr fong - 86%
tian ls - 93% (whoo!!)
vincent - 96%??! (lol)

if this makes you think that it's really hard to get 90% and above.. dont worry. its not.

its just that unfortunately... you know. haha.

lol. guess how symmetrical my face is.

lalala. i'm not telling.

but after all, i dont think that thing is accurate. if you put more pictures of the same person, it gives you all different readings and sometimes the difference is very wide.

and also because it showed that jack neo is better looking than brad pitt.

Friday, July 21, 2006

guan yang's trying real hard to be zu zhang. ~~so hard it irritates me. so demanding.~~

SSHHHH!!!

da zu was ok. the new shou xi conduct for us. haha.
he's quite soft and shy, but i guess he'll get used to it soon. its his first time anyway.

oh, and i was put alone again. but luckily no solos. but if have also nevermind. i lian4 hao3 already. haha.

better get used to the solitude.

i like chun!!

***

deep fried chicken in curry - thats so disgusting
coconut milk - skimmed milk
e*-**** p****
yellow balls; siew mai; man tou
me banging my head on the floor cos i laughed too much
nic and me laughing so much till we cried

that pretty much sums up today. :)

***

mr gan's bro put his own picture as his DP. one and only himself.

was talking to him. 'discussing' the the new circle line and the MRT trains.
apparently my msn nick attracted too much attention.

and apparently his average waiting time for each MRT to come is 15 mins?

wow. he boards at bedok and i board at tanah merah.
one stop away.
11mins difference.

he's watch got problem ar?!

and i gave him a morally educational talk on anyhow using words, like, diao. cos he used it.
so as you know me, my ears and eyes are ultra sensitive to vulgarities and what not, i told him lah.

haha.

oh ya, and being me again, i typed a 'haha' in the convo.

surprisingly, it was the first and only.
he asked whats so funny and why i'm laughing.

i guess i better not talk to him anymore.

oh and let me refresh your memory if you've forgotten or do not know.
mr gan's 28 and his bro is 12.

yes.

***

i write for no one but myself.
i do whatever i want to please myself.
i laugh however i want to please myself.
i wont have to change myself just to please others.

with change comes power. people are currently hungry for power.
the power struggle has set in.

i dont care what they want do.
i do not fight.
i'll still be me.

give me the opportunity and i'll show you all i can do.
other than that i will not fight to show.
i shouldn't have to.
miss me and lose out.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

shocking.

announcement of new committee was simply shocking, and scandalous too at some parts.

so sad, handover's over already, again.

one year past so fast. i still remember the handover last year. i remember i didnt know much people, much less remember who took what role. but of course after some time i got to know more about them lah.

then history repeated itself. eugene was slowly placing the 2 rows of 14 chairs neatly on the LT floor. one row red, one row grey.

then he took up the whiteboard marker and wrote 'zhi2 wei3 announcement' on the whiteboard, after which he examined it thoroughly, looking up and down, down and up at the word 'announcement'. lol. amusing.

then, it was TIME.

all the previous (so i should call them now) zhi wei came in, each holding a black envelope sealed with a little sticker (lol) in their hands. what's in it, i shall not know, that is till next year of course, when we finally get to see our own level mates step up to their rightful seats.

thats still a year later, of course.

anyway, they all took their seats according to their roles and, just sat down. then jobina intro-ed and it started.

one by one all the zhiweis gave their speeches, saying how much they learned, each adding one '很多' as the number of people who presented went by. haha. at least better than last year's where they just copied what each other said. this year got coordination and planning of what and how they're going to say. haha.

amelia gave a very... uhh... creative speech. and turned out our new zu zhang was guan yang.

oh i dont know how i can ever get used to it. haha. but at least he sends the messages to mayping, not me. guess he didnt know what vincent and amelia did. hehehe. good luck mayping.

and anyway, it carried on. wei cheng was the new guan yue zu zhang. lol, seems like gy people already expected it. ok.. oh ya! when they announced his name, there was one SIGNIFICANT scream for him. guess who?? haha. lee yilin!! hinthint.

ok, and it carried on.

then when it came to eugene's turn, oh.. so touching, as in, serious. he was trying to hold back his tears, saying "dorea 说她不能哭，所以我也不能哭。" then when he was trying hard to talk, alot of people also felt like crying lor. including me hor, i not so heartless one.

but its nice lah, to see that we have such dedicated people in CO.

if only our batch could see and understand that, and be the same way too.

ok, lets carry on. when it was ruth the treasurer's turn, WOW. at this moment of time, guess what was she still doing? she was still going after people for money!!! lol!! she so funny.

then was xiao xue's turn to announce the new secretary, ying ying, but she was absent. so guess who went to collect the envelope on her behalf? before mdm ilyana even managed to finish her sentence on something about this being on a professional level, someone none other than guanyang ran forward from his seat to the other end to collect it for her.

scandal scandal.

and continuing.

the fu tuan zhang was from xian yue and...

...

...

the tuan zhang.

!!!da da da dum!!!

jobina stood up, began speaking, and the fun and funny part began. to describe the new tuan zhang, one by one all the previous zhiweis took turns to stand up to act out saying what he/she looks like funnily. haha.

ruth said that he/she was definitely fatter than her, again. she said that for the treasurer also. haha. but actually i think the tuan zhang can be equally skinny you know. haha.

anyway..
the new tuan zhang is...

...

...

...

...

...

...

lam kee wei.

when they announced it i couldnt believe. really really could not believe it.

when everybody was cheering, i was like, boom, the world closing in on me, it was like i couldnt hear a thing at all, not the cheering, not the people talking, i just watched keewei walk down the steps in slow motion, proceed to the end seat, receive the envelope and sit down.

HAHA. not so drama wan lah.

but is WAS something like that. i just couldnt believe. no offense or discrimination against him, but, of all the people in CO i'm surprised they chose and approved of him.

good for him lah. lets give him our full support in leading CO to greater heights.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

keewei! i just hope he does a good job. really, really, good job. yay.

after all, SYF's just next year.

AND GUO LAO SHI'S LEAVING US!!!
how can he leave us at such a crucial time??!

i mean, our syf next year lehh!

haiz.

just hope that zheng lao shi doesnt retire anytime soon.

AHHHH!!! i'm crossing my fingers that he wont and guo lao shi will still stay on and we can get gold with honours and the reputation of DHSCO will not 败在我们的手上!!!

we're in for a rough ride this 1 year, starting from yesterday.

***

ahh!!

they have a machine down on the field and dug deep deep holes into the ground yesterday!!

and i'm one house too far! my house got blocked up too! they've finished fencing up the part of the field right in front of my house, and only my next door neighbour's house didnt get blocked. they still get to see the path.

sigh. thats really it for the nice scenic view of the field and the mrt station now.

but one thing i'm really surprised at is that the usual man was back, still flying his aeroplane as per normal, like nothing was going on on the field! haha.

seems they're not letting the construction stop them from doing so.

at least, not for now.

all i will ever see now at least for the next 2 years from the garden, porch or even from the living or dining room, will just be the white metal boards that fence the field up away from us.

conservation vs urban planning.

thats one where urban planning completely won over it.

***

"It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power." -Quoted from Linda's blog, posted a very long time ago.

i guess the handover and the field are changes too. and like what's said there, in change there is power.

for handover, it may be true, iand it should be.

but for the field?! I DONT WANT THE CHANGE!! its still meaningful! so there's still security in it!

haiz.

courage. i must have courage. i must have courage to release the familiar and embrace the new.

NOOO!!! but i still don't want to!!

***

game of the day:

"nicole nicole nicole
up and down
slap your thigh
poke your eye
go to spain
feel the pain
something something membrane / man's brain
something something something
jelly jelly long jiang pas pas pas! (or something like that)"

play it to the old, childish but traditional game of the younger us that went like this:

"set set set, bom bom bom (or something like that)
wo men shang wo men xia
wo men hou qian jiao
wo men yi er san
wo men si wu liu
wo men qi ba jiu
wo men hao peng you
wo men jelly jelly long jiang pas pas pas!"

so basically we just replace everything with the new lyrics

nicole nicole nicole, up and down, slap your thigh, blah blah blah... you know how it goes.

just scroll back up if you dont know.

which why wouldnt you know in the first place when its just up there.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

july 16, sunday, 1.31am

i'm supposed to be like any other good kid around
-in bed.

why am i not then, you may ask?
-i can't.

dont worry, its not because i have any problems with sleeping or anything.

i'm in awe.

i just went around reading other people's blogs.

wow.

14 year olds do write very well.
14 year olds do think very deep.
14 year olds understand life more than you think.

never underestimate 14 year olds.

they can quote like you've never seen before, much less understand.
they can compose like you've never read or heard before, all the more you will appreciate.
they think deep, so deep it makes adults look like they've never moved their brains before.

no offense, adults who may come here, though i dont know why you are here.

but it really makes you see the world with a different view, a different perspective.
make you think twice about thinking.
and make you think why you've never thought like this before.

thats the power of teenagers who think.

and those are all from blogs.

my brother once had a debate with this topic:
blogging, whether its good or bad.

he was on the stand of the 'good' side.
i can't remember if the team won or not.

but to me, i think blogging is one of the best tools for writing and expressing what you feel and what you have to say, although you most definitely cannot abuse that right, or, you, simply go to jail.

and of course, for blogging to benefit your writing, you have to first use proper english and most importantly, proper spelling.

hello? thats common sense.

in blogs, you see posts, stories and quotes that are so contrasting from the writers themselves. why? thats their only escape. thats their only retreat from expectations.

they're facing a computer, not people, not their friends, not their family.

they say what they want, what they think, what they feel, however they want.

they dont come up to you one day to say all those things to you, do they? they cant.

thus, they have to pour them out somewhere, somehow, someday.

the answer: blogs/dairies.

dairies are when they mean for it to be personal.
blogs are when they want to share their thinkings with everyone.

of course those may not really be applicable to bloggers who just write about meaningless stuff.

but everybody has a different way of writing after all.

some write about everyday stuff.
some write about life on the whole.
some specifically picks out funny stuff to write about.
some write on philosophies.
some write about their everyday discoveries of life values and the people around them.
and some wasted ones just write truckloads of rubbish, unsightly and shameless crap.

that is the power(and for the last point, shameless-ness) of blogs and 14 year olds.

well dont look at me. i'm still only 13.

but anyhow, they left me in deep thoughts, in awe, in admiration.

2.05am.

something's wrong with my computer and its automatically restarting in 1:31 minutes.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

i held a dead baby bird in my palms yesterday.

my maid found it dead at the window of my elder brother's bedroom. its those small cute little brown bird that's very common here. you see it everwhere you turn.

yup.

it laid dead right in my hands.

no movement
no heatbeat
no life
no soul

its body was very hard, cos of the bones and cos there's not much fat in it. very light too. eyes closed, feet black and shrivelled up.

but somehow, the body still felt warm though.

well, its probably just the plastic bag that i was using to hold it.

HAHA. thought i used my bare hands? eew no.

rest in peace little birdy.

***

had my first time playing cello exam pieces with ban4 zou4 today at shangyin!! it sounded so nice! haha.

but i really pity mayping, having to play for us for 3 lessons in a row, and still have to go for one more lesson after that. her own.

and tian lao shi told us that we have to treat her and mayping after exams cos they so xin1 ku3, have to be patient to put up with teaching/playing and hearing those 3 songs over and over and over again.

ok mayping, you can stop gloating and being so HOU4 LIAN3 PI2 now.

but as for me i dont have to treat them. HAHA. cos i also ban zou-ing for mayping for her exams.

but for han yin and cally, see first loh.

if they do well, well done for both of them.
if they dont do well, its mayping's fault.

note:
its MAYPING'S fault, not theirs.

HAHA.

cos like tian lao shi said, the accompanion has to cover for them if anything goes wrong. thats why whenever you have exams, choose good accompanions.

no wonder tian lao shi totally DEFINITELY ABSOLUTELY didnt want samuel to ban4 zou4 when she asked who could play the piano in our batch.

haha.

talking about that, i better go practise the songs soon. she chased me out of the room during mayping's lesson cos i still dunno how to play. lol. we starting again next week.

***

da zus with GLS are fun.
da zus with ZLS are serious.
unconfirmed may-have dazus with WGY will be NOOOO!!!!!!!!

yesterday we had da zu with GLS, so it was, fun and funny. haha.

i love ju2 song4! i love ju song!
i love tian1 shan1 more! i love tian shan more!
i ...- have nothing to say about chun1 yet.

oh oh oh!

*ahem ahem*

i hereby officially declare that I HAVE FOUND MY PANTS!!!!!!

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!

thats $30 saved!

i found it in CO room's tby room after da zu.

wonder why i didnt see it when i went in to take a bow for my cello before dazu.

oh ya, i was rushing for time and ran out of the room after taking a bow.
no wonder i didnt see it.

heh.

fine. i shall give credit.

thanks to
liqin for returning it to me
chai hong that i managed to find the isetan bag containing my pants

and

no thanks to
the zong3 wu4, eugene, whom everyone directed me to when i asked them for help.

i'd die if he reads this. haha. but most probably he wont.

I DONT WANT HANDOVER!!!

Thursday, July 13, 2006

its not about the noise that its gonna create, its about the field.

they've started construction already. they poured some bricks of some sort onto the field yesterday.
they poured rocks and dug up the part of the field right in front of my house today
they're gonna inspect the house and take some photos of it in case some part of it cracks during construction tomorrow.

HOW COULD THEY?!

no more sounds of people flying aeroplanes
no more screaming little children running in the field
no more cheers of people playing soccer
no more dogs running around on the field
no more owners chatting while letting their dogs run
no more people lying on the field gazing up at the sky

sigh.

i'm really gonna miss watching people play soccer on the field
miss the sounds of the people flying their aeroplanes, doing loops high up in the sky
miss watching the dogs running on the field.

i remember my next door neighbour used to pat and play with a dog while walking through the field on her way home after school. now i think cos she goes to school at a different timing, she doesnt play with the dog anymore.

but with the construction going on, at least people are still making use of the field having fun.

yesterday, the usual man was still flying his plane out there.
and how nice, by just watching him fly, strangers can make friends just like that, like the elderly and a man back from work. haha.

and another thing was going on that i've never seen before.

a man was playing golf?

haha. yes.
he was practising his putting i think.

when i first saw that the construction had began while i was walking home, dunno why, i suddenly walked off the path and onto the field and on soft green grass. haha. people behind me must have thought i was mad. after that i just looked up at the sky and carried on walking, i almost fell down. haha.

today, a guy was kicking his soccer ball on the field, alone. probably thought he should quickly take the time to play before the field is gone.

oh.. the usual man is back flying his bright yellow plane. haha.

better remember the colour of it before i forget after i never see it again.
but i'll miss the sound of it too. haiz.

two people are playing soccer now too.
a couple of people jogging.
a couple of people cycling
a man walking his dog.
people standing by the side watching the usual man fly his plane.

all these are actually going on NOW, while construction workers are still currently digging up the field and putting wooden poles into the holes.

its for putting up the fencing so people cannot enter the construction site i think.
no wonder people are all suddenly coming up to play again.

haiz.

wonder what will happen when the condo is finally built.

nothing, i guess.

nothing.

Monday, July 10, 2006

woo.. so sleepy.

went for mentoring this morning and at 10.59 we called timothy to ask where he was and guess what? HE JUST WOKE UP!! then yuesing was no where to be seen and chia chu was playing soccer. so only me, yih sin and en ning were punctual for mentoring.

...

i agree with you. our group very nice right?

anyway, we had loads of problems discovered during that one hour and had to go back to Little India to do the survey AGAIN cos we did not have enough response to collate into graphs.

urgh.

so in the end only me and yihsin went. chia chu and en ning had MEP, and it would be much MUCH better without the other two.

trust me. it was.

so we were supposed do much more interviews to get many more responses, so we, did.

so tiring! we didnt have the map then, cos it was an unexpected, unprepared trip down, so we just walked aimlessly around, wandering off to where our feet took us to.

and surprisingly, WE WALKED ALL THE WAY TO MUSTAFA! hahahaha!!

and we ended up sidetracking and buying chocolates that my father supposedly only managed to get in london.

HAHA.

i shall tease him and say that i went all the way to london to buy it since i couldnt resist the chocolates and since i couldnt stand a day without the chocolates. lol.

anyway, after that we walked all the way back to little india arcade, did some more interviewing, and went home.

then i kaplonked on my bed and fell asleep.

***

i pity france, i feel sad for them, i feel extremetly sad for my zidane, but most of all, i feel sad for my parents who bet they would win.

ZIDANEEE!! WHY??!! why did you go headbutt people?! see lah! now you cannot score in the penalty shootout, now you cannot shake hands with the important people and hug them, now you cannot get your medal in front of everybody, and now your medal is taken away!!

oh ya! the medal! woman at the back! dont think i didnt see you ok. you think just cos zidane didnt go up to get his medal its extra and you can just casually put it in your pocket and bring it home is it?!

haiyoh.

poor poor zidane. he didnt appear AT ALL after his red card. ok, he's not supposed to, but, HE DIDNT APPEAR ANYMORE! it was his last game, and it was the last match! he didnt get to appear at all!

wahhh.. my baldy zidane!! see lah. thats your punishment for being so rough.

***

SHIT! my cello exam's on the 2nd of august!! and we only have 3 shangyin lessons left to practise with banzou!

AHHH!!! and my exam is on wednesday! 2pm! that means i'll miss malay lesson!!! the precious 1 period of malay in the whole entire week!!!

noo!!! i cannot miss malay!

NOOO!!!!

wl.

and we havent even bought our own cellos yet. what are we gonna use for exam? school cello? you must be joking.

yah.. you win, very funny.

look, i'm laughing.

ha-ha.

***

wahahaha. apparently i'm now part of gls fanclub.
mayping FORCED me to be in.
i had no other choice!!
forgive me those who goes against it!

lol. so drama, but of cos not AS drama as ~~maypig~~ mayping lah.

OFFICIAL GLS FANCLUB

MEMBERS:
1. SHUTING
2. MAYPING
3. YILIN
4. JEENISE
5. ESTHER
6. MICHELLE
7. LIQIN
8. JIETING
9. RACHEL
10.JIAYIN

Current number of members: 10

TO-DO LIST
1. find ppl to join
2. make a crappy slogan
3. assign gou zai dui
4. buy required equipment
5. make posters
6. make banners
7. ask for his autograph
8. make him famous across whole sg
9. scream whenever you see him
10. help him conduct qian chang hui

RULES
1. all members shld have gls in their msn dps.
2. all members should obey the rules
3. all members should put GLS- in front of their msn dn.

THANKYOU!

lol. that was the 'rulebook' to the crappy fanclub. haha.

but at least now you know and understand the 'gls' in my nick, and also (if really have to), my dp.

haha.

oh ya, that was outdated, there are more members now, hanyin and prida. HAHA.

***

i really really feel like saying 'you dont know who you're talking to' in the tagboard.
i really really feel like saying 'you dont know who am i' in the tagboard'.
i really really feel like saying 'you'll really regret it if you do what you threatened to do', cos you really will.
but i dont believe you can in the first place, and you most definitely wont, cos unfortunately, i cant tag.

happy?!

and MOST unfortunate of all, i have to see you, again.

pfftphfhpthtalkdlakadfjahlksjhaljslkdjlfjkf!!!!

***

you know whats the weirdest thing?

your primary school friend, same level, same age, but not necessarily same class, being your brother's good friend now.

cos he or she is your primary school friend, you havent had contact with them for like, 2 years?

then all of a sudden, one day when you wake up, got to the toilet to wash up, and when you come out of the toilet, voila! you see your friend out there with a group of other people, doing project with your brother.

thats what happened and i got a shock of my life. hahaha.

i wonder if he knew it was my house he was going to, or he even knew that i was related to his friend whose house he was going to. haha.

whats weird is that he's talking to your brother now, also from the same school, 2 years older, but never knew each other then.

the weirdness of life~

Thursday, July 06, 2006

SHIT.

the post didnt come out. nevermind. i just posted about landui outing and some malay stuff we learnt in school again.

haiz.

i dont want to retype everything.
i'll just talk about malay. haha.

me and sop made this up on the mrt today, prior to what cikgu noorizan taught us during lesson.

"boleh saya pergi ke tandas?" (can i go to the toilet?)
"tak boleh!" (cannot!)
"saya tak boleh tahan!!!" (i cannot stand it!!!)

hahahah!!! i find that very funny. call me crazy, but i dunno why. haha. and dont worry, we didnt learn that whole thing, only the first sentence. we made up the rest. HAHA.

and daniel had trouble telling the class to stand and bow to the teacher for the FIRST TIME. cos he had to say it in malay. haha.

"kelas diri!" (class stand!)
"terimah kasih kelas." (thank you class.)
"kelas tunduk!" (class bow!)
"terimah kasih cikgu noorizan." (thank you teacher _ _ _)
"selamat tinggal." (goodbye)

haha. ok, we didnt have to say selamat tinggal at the end, but it would be nice if we did. haha.

then we also learnt all the 5Ws and 1H, and 'I', 'you', 'he/she', 'they', 'we' in malay.

ohh! and i managed to make up this sentence using some of the words we learnt today too!

a-hem..

kami tak ada sekolah, saya boleh pergi ke tandas! saya gembira!

go figure what it means yourself. although i think the last part of the sentence is a bit wrong, but it should be something like that.

if you know then awak pandai. bagus!
if you dont know then awak bodoh lah! tak bagus!

good luck!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

we went to kampong glam, little india and chinatown on tuesday for our fieldtrip for IDMI week.

conservation, this word alone. does it mean to do good for the place or to ruin it?

i shall not comment. it's our project anyway. haha.

but talk about conservation, if they want to conserve something, i'd say conserve the big field in front of tanah merah mrt station.

conserve it, disallow buildings to be constructed there!

conserve it so usual activities will not stop.

before soil testing started, before the land was sold, it was a lively place. lively not as in lots of people there at a go, but there was fun, there was joy, there was spirit, there was the atmosphere!

people parked their cars in front of the field and flew their remote control planes and helicopters there, watching it fly so freely and high up into the sky. although humans couldnt fly, that alone made them feel so free. its especially such a joy to watch the aeroplanes fly when people walk across the field.

owners let their dogs loose and let them play and run free and wild on the field while they themselves lay on the grass to rest and admire the big, blue, vast sky, or just stroll slowly on the field, watching over the dog, or chat, socialise and relax with other owners there too.

children, teenagers or even adults play soccer on the field too, having so much fun, having the time of their lives then, playing, running and exercising in the field. people played soccer there on birthdays, they played soccer there after school in preparation for competitions too.

once, there was a couple down right smack in the middle of the field. no need to say what they were doing then, but it still involved the field and people having great times!

people just run out to the field when they want to have fun. they could do anything there. be it just running around catching each other or playing ball with each other, they just have fun!

the field is the place for people to escape from the bustling, busy and fast life of singapore.
the field is for people to have a break from life once in a while.
the field is where people go to be stress free!

people have to take a break from life and appreciate the little things in life or simply just slow down their pace for a moment. where do people go? to the field!

just laying down on the soft green grass and gazing up to the vast sky, the big blue sky, you can feel as if you were really flying in it. you will then notice and actually really feel how huge, endless and boundless the sky really is.

although we all already know that it is THAT big, but out there, you really feel it. because the land area is relatively large, and the housing around it are considerably low, you really can feel like you're floating in the sky, boundless, limitless and free!

at night as you walk through the field, looking up is an enormous dark blue sky so beautiful, you can literally gaze upwards your whole journey across the field. it is so big, wherever you turn, it still feels endless, it really makes you stare in awe, sometimes people really just stop right in their tracks to look up and admire it. it's so beautiful it's really very mi2 ren2.

on some nights, when you look out on the sky above the field, the moon can be seen so clearly, its so large and bright. when the sky is very dark, you can see lots of bright stars shining across the sky above you. there is really a lot of stars, you'll feel like its a mini galaxy right above your head. mini because although there are lots of stars, there still isnt as much as in other countries where there are so many stars, its like they were just splashed on. but how often do you get to see such big bright moons and so many stars in singapore anyway?

how often can you get to experience that? especially in singapore, in such a busy and hectic country where everybody's footsteps and pace are so fast.

how do i know so much?

i live right in front of it.

although it really isnt like a beach, seaside, a mountain foot, the top of a mountain or anything as scenic as that, the simple field itself can be just as beautiful if you know how to appreciate it.

but its really not just about the view, its about the people there, the life on the empty field, the activities people carry out over there, living back the simple life, asking nothing more but mere freedom to relieve stress from everyday work.

for the older people, its to relive their younger days as a child, feeling ever so carefree once again.
for the younger people, its to enjoy their days as a kid while they still can before stress, problems and work come haunting them in the days to come.

now that they're starting construction there, its really such a pity, i cannot describe how -. i just cannot put it in words.

sometimes i wish i had $350million to buy over the land.

like you may be thinking now, there are still parks or shopping centers you can go to, but its just not the same. although parks pretty much do the trick too, it just still feels different.

afterall, people in the field are people who live nearby it.

neighbours, as you may call it.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

I look like an indian, malay but i'm a chinese.

now i look like a korean too.

wow. looks like i can look like almost anybody now. haha.

***

oh i'm so touched. the box of dove heart chocolates that my brother bought home from china was actually for me and i didnt know. haha.

no wonder he kept asking me why i havent opened it to eat it then.
no wonder no one dared to touch it when it was left unopened in the fridge.

of course, the box of chocolates are now opened. the chocolates are finished already actually. and it wasnt eaten only by me, everyone ate.

now i feel so guilty that i didnt buy anything for him when i was in china.

but then again, i didnt buy much then, as compared to him. the amount of money i used there was the amount that he came home with after the trip.

***

it feels so weird to be hosted by other people n your OWN house, like being asked if you want to sit here, or if you want to eat with them. haha.

thats what happened yesterday when my brother's friends came over to my house.

but they were older than me anyway, so what can you say. they were just being friendly.

but it's so embarassing, you dont even dare to move around in the house with them around. haha.

but i got around well in the end. they were nice. haha.

but now, it's gonna start all over again. this time MORE people are coming, for my youngest brother's birthday party. but luckily, they're much MUCH younger than me. haha. they're only 7!! cute little people.

ok. i just finished printing the game sheets for the party later, finished writing the titles for pictionary, finished making the sandwiches, and now i have to go clean up my room.

byebye!

Saturday, July 01, 2006

urgh. i was sleepy then till now that i suddenly came across and thought of this. it really angers me, this.

i cannot, absolutely CANNOT stand people who are so desperate. to me they are like the worst kinds of people ever to live on earth. its just so disgusting. they cannot wait till time passes but just go around pleading openly to the world instead, losing all dignity and respect they once had. its just so shameless. yucks.

and i cant stand vulgar people. really vulgar ones, like those who use Fs like they're a normal word they would use in a composition. they use it so freely whenever they want, wherever they want, however they want, they dont even know what it means anymore. its just dumb, what they're doing, spoiling their own image of themselves. yet another shameful thing to do.

but whats worse is, where they get the words from. where DO you think they got it from. their parents? i dont think so. their siblings? even so, where did THEY get it from then? they must have gotten it from really uneducational, unbenefitting movies or TV shows. ok, it might have been the fault of the film producers, but they still blindly picked it up from there too, thinking its so cool to use such words without thinking what it really means or what it will do to you. i mean, at their age now, dont they know whats right and wrong, whats good or bad, what you should or should not do? where's all their values? even though they might have picked up those words at a very young age, now that they're older, they should think through on what they're saying, the words that are coming out of their mouths, those foul foul words.

what would people think of them? i'd feel embarassed being around them if i heard them uttering Fs with those unsightly lips. i'd feel so sorry for them they dont know thier values well at all.

thinking its cool and nice to say them, they must have wanted to fit in so so badly. what they didnt know is that they would be the outcasted ones soon enough. its just disgusting. my eyes twitch at the sight of it. my ears feel uncomfortable if they enter them. urgh.

but whats the worst that can happen? a person is both a desperate despo AND a really REALLY REALLY vulgar person. almost every sentence he / she says, there's sure to be vulgarities coming out of those dirty mouths. disgusting. and they dont even know there's a problem with it. they dont even know theres a problem with THEMSELVES.

their friends. are they real friends? are they true to them?

the scariest thing is if they're not, if they're just putting on an act in front of them, to make them feel better, to make them feel accepted, just to make them happy.

out of pity? i dont know.

why exactly, i dont know. i'm lucky not to have any of these kinds of people as my close friends.

but how can they bear to stay close to them and really be part of them? unless they're the same kinds of people, then there's no question to it. if not, there's really almost no way one could be around them for so long.

its almost unbearable, having to tolerate it.

Fortunately, i have none of these kinds of people as my close friends, or at least not as bad, but mostly, not at all.

unfortunately, i feel really ashamed and embarassed that i even KNEW one then, and until recently, now.

i would not have known anything about it. i would not have to have to tolerate or put up with any of these. but i had to.

i dont blame it, but i just feel sorry for you, the way you turned out to become.

thats all.