I ♥ Music

Thursday, March 29, 2007

omg.. i'm like going crazy. they say not to think or worry or stress ourselves too much over SYF. therefore i shall come here to relieve my stress, anxiety, disappointment, what not (:

i feel super sad lah. there's like no one to talk to. ok, there is, but not all the time. i cant keep bottling everything up and end up looking, behaving and acting like a zombie all the time. i dont want to be like Jim. i'm not like Jim!

Music, or rather, my cello, used to be my 'stress-reliever'. now, it has become my 'stress-producer'!! oh wait, my cello was my stress reliever. now i'm using vincent's. that explains it!

i dont know what to think, who to believe, who to turn to. everyone's saying different things, having different point of views and thoughts. everyone has different lines to read between. which one?!! are they really speaking the truth, to scare us, wake us up, or just plain put down. are they merely just saying it to make us feel better, console us cos we know we cant make it anymore, or they really have faith and truly believe in us.

lol i'm going crazy, watching tianshan on youtube over and over again, watching khojj's super solo, listening to the recorded jiguanyu, and all the other CO songs that sounds better than ours.

fantasizing..

***
anyway, aside, time for dreams!
i want to be in shicheng! its like so cool lah! haha. today let off at 8PM, went back to CO room and the shicheng people were already there practising. then its like a few people only, cos its, shicheng. and like, imagine you're part of that few people, owning the nice nice CCO badge and cute little white bow tie. haha. I WANT!

i want to go shicheng concert to see the people sing, and see how CO music fits with it. lol. the woman's voice is like super powerful lah. while we were still having jiantao, from the GRANDSTAND, we suddenly heard this super opera-y loud and stong and powerful voice. OMG. it sounded like it came from the parade square lah. but obviously not, it was from CO room. and i think the door was closed, yet it sounded like she was just beside us..

seh.

i dont care, i'm going with mayping. wahahaha.
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wheee!! i'm not doing homework! i've not done my chinese for like how many weeks already can.. i feel super slack and super bad and super evil lah. but i dont want to do! ok ok, i promise, PROMISE, i'll put everything that i owe her in her locker on monday morning. no more delays! but can someone just motivate me to do.. haha.

and i just read on msn health news just now. they said that what adequate sleep makes people thin, and sleep deprivation makes people FAT. are you sure its true? i sleep at like 12-1am everyday, i'm becoming the opposite, so much so that i'm like eating energy bars to keep me alive. LOL.

***
i'm sleepy. haha.

do you believe in miracles?
i know i do.
i was a part of a miracle that happened before.
i dont believe we cant make another.
i just hope we are in time for one.

:)

Thursday, March 29, 2007

anyway.. syf in just 3 days!

yinzhun -can die wan.
gunjue -almost there.
aesthetically -quite ok.
blending in with orchestra -sometimes good, sometimes not.
齐-ness -off at some parts.
tempo -bar 55 still cannot.

overall remarks
keewei -bronze/COP
guanyang -silver/COP
primero -standard still not quite there, but at least a gold.
yexiang -Gold/?goldwithhonours?
ttk -"我真的非常相信你们是可以的。"
other schools/teachers -EXPECTING goldwithhonours.
Us -miracle to happen.

we still can do it!!! just give it our best shot! no matter what we get, as long as we 对得起自己, and know that we've put in our best efforts, although getting goldwithhonours would be the best, and losing it will be... umm.. devastating, and with it comes dire consequences.

but with music in our hearts and 屈原on our minds, together, WE WILL BE THE MIRACLE!

we will always be DHSCO no matter what the outcome!

GO! GO! GO!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dhsco
"The orchestra has won the SYF (Singapore Youth Festival) Award of Distinction consecutively since 1987 till the last SYF in this year. (thats 20 years.)

The Orchestra has also held the distinction of being the Best Chinese Orchestra of the Year in the SYF Chinese Orchestra Competition Finals since 1997. (thats 10 years)

DHSCO has also received the Gold award with Honours in the 2005 Singapore Youth Festival, a highly prestigious award. (thats first in history.)"

20 years vs 10mins.

台上十分钟，台下（二）十年功。

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

behold.. i'm going to vent my anger now. haha. according to mrs hong, i cannot bottle up my anger, or i'll EXPLODE!

I'm angry, (ok, i admit it) i'm sad. i'm angry and sad at the same time.

angry + sad = hungry

student's lives are so different now from last time. we are like so busy and super stress lah. i'm so angry. its not that i dont want to eat. its not that i dont want to sleep. you think i like it? you think i want to die. its that i have no time at all lah. see what with SYF coming up in just one week, we have practices almost everyday, official or non official. we leave school at like 6-7pm, by the time we reach home, how much time do you think we have left to rest or do homework? i'm like dying here!! i have TONS of homework not done and not passed up for WEEKS.

lets do some math now.

supposedly we wake up at 6am, get ready and leave for school.
we finish school at 1.45pm = 7 1/2 hrs of studying.
CCA starts at 2pm. time left for packing up and (im)possible lunch = 15mins.
CCA ends at 6pm (last time 7). time spent with cello = 4hrs.
travelling time = 1hr. time we reach home = 7pm.
Dinner + rest = 1hr. time to start homework = 8pm.
total time out since the moment stepped out of house = 13hrs

how much time do we have left for homework before parents will want us to sleep?
and being out and doing so much the whole day, naturally you'll reach home tired right?

so.. upon reaching home tired and still having to do homework.. i cant concentrate!! and have to spend so much time on it in the end. and if i spend so much time on it.. i'll have to eat into my sleeping time!! so if i sleep late, and wake up early the next day, i'll feel tired and sleepy. so in class, i cannot concentrate! and if homework was not completed the previous day, i need to do them during my spare times, i.e. recess! WHERES THE TIME TO EAT?!! and after that, i'll need to rush off for CCA or what not, and reach home late again.. blah blah blah.. IT ALL REPEATS ITSELF!!

lack of sleep, lack of food, lack of concentration = black eyes, weight loss, deproving grades.

:)

you think i'm happy losing yet another so many kilograms while i'm ALREADY SUPER UNDERWEIGHT? you think i dont want to sleep? i cannot!!!! WE cannot!! at a time we need your suppost most, you scold us. times are different, its not as easy as you think it is now. dont start throwing tantrums or start getting petty, i forgot, yes. but you think i dont have enough on my mind already?

RARRRR!!!!

people are saying i'm getting weird already!!!

HELP!!!

i left my smiles with you guys..
i left my laughters in 2G.

WE NEED A MIRACLE TO HAPPEN!

Friday, March 23, 2007

I'm flattered.
I'm flattered you think so highly of me.
so high to the extent of being better than them, or even YOU.
I'm flattered you chose me out of so many people.
With such high expectations, now i'm afraid.
I'm afraid i'd let you down.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

right.. since i dont want to do homework just yet, let me update on malaysia trip, which ended like a long time ago. (6 days to be exact :))

on saturday i reached school at 1030pm to sleepover in CO room. until 430am, when we boarded the bus for senai airport... tadum.. thats where EVERYTHING started going absolutely WRONG.

great trip huh.

upon reaching the customs, the driver suddenly told us that he's gonna do us a favour by asking us to just bring our valuables and passports down to check in, but leave our luggages. CELLOS? they went to like lay it down on the seats so the people checking cannot see them can! its like so scary lah! he said "do me a favour. keep your mouths SHUT and dont tell ANYONE about this." ??? its like super easy to smuggle or a GUN in if its this easy to sneak our cellos and luggages?

anyway, he scared me out of my wits i dared not sleep when we made it across the customs. i was afraid he was going to kidnap us and take us somewhere else. LOL. i even watched out for every signboard we passed on the road to make sure he turns at the senai airport turning lah. hahaha! spastic. nevermind. i was trying to keep everyone safe (: HAHA.

oh ya! before i forget. being malaysians very fun leh. haha. our passports right, just give it to the custom person, they flip it open, dunno do what to it, scan i think, then can go already. no need chop, no need fill up card wan. haha! dont say i show off or what lor. last year i had to pay $50+ to make visa can! bleargh.

anyway, so customs everywhere was quite easy. and we took y AIR ASIA!!!!!!!!!!!! SOMEHOW, the plane smelt like pee, BUT, the toilets smelt like a dental clinic, which means it smells quite alright. so.. where is the smell coming from?? apart from that, ok, there was turbulence. at first, i was kind of really enjoying it, you know, like a roller coaster ride. really, it was quite fun. haha. but about like a minute after it stopped then i realised there was a. excruciating pain on the entire left side of my face. my eyes felt like it was gonna burst, lol, my nose felt super nasal-ly painful, and my jaw gum and teeth, YES, teeth, felt super pain. i dont know what happened, but at that time i thought my vessel was going to burst or something. ahahaha.

ok, other than that, luggages and CELLOS were checked in as usual.

bad move. wrong move. horrible move. TERRIBLE move. REGRETFUL MOVE.

look what happened:

looks fine right?

NOT.

below the layers of sponge, inside the sponged cover of the cellos and underneath one more layer of sponge, 4 cellos were damaged to the extent that it cannot be played throughout the trip until it gets fixed. of the four are the gao1 yin1 qu1 people.

GREAT.

ok, we get on. of course, when i took this photo in the kuching airport, no one had any idea what happened yet. so off we went, happily going for our visits to museums and bird nest place and what not. and throughout the whole day, oh man! my stomach hurt like mad can! hahaha

anyway, when we finally reach the hotel before dinner, we.... unwrapped our cellos, only to face our ultimate horrors.

mayping unwrapped hers first. lucky for her, her then 1 week old cello was perfectly fine. phew! haha, cos she went against her mom to bring it. lol. so because hers was alright, i thought, maybe the all of ours will turn out fine too, like in china. so, when i unwrapped MINE, at first, i only saw the front of my cello. ok.. i thought. only the bridge was like SUPER out of position, nothing much, just adjust it back and it will do.

then...

i turned it around. i didnt say anything, cos no words could come out of my mouth then. seriously, i never experienced anything like it before. i really COULDNT speak. so, like a new born baby, if they couldnt speak, they cry to express any feelings or emotions.

all i saw was a . a long from the top of the body of the cello, all the way down to the bottom right before the end pin.

:)

SKIP THE TRAGEDIES!

after that, we went off for dinner in a school there. and as we were bored waiting for the food, we played cai quan. HAHA! the loser had to eat this small corn slice coated in salt and pepper, kuchings's specialty, and dipped soaked in soya sauce. hahaha. in the end guan yang was the first to win, so we tweaked the rules and forced him to eat it instead, since it was his birthday that day. LOL.

when we went back to the hotel, we decided to celebrate guanyang's birthday for him cos we really pitied him that it was his day and no one really remembered and his cello was also damaged and he got shouted at by clara the very first thing that morning.

so...

haha! we so nice right! guanyang cried lor! hahaha. ok, actually we forced him to, so he just wet his cheeks. lol. ohya, when he finished bathing, we saw a "happy 16th birthday" that he wrote to himself on the mirror lah. thats like so sad can, celebrating on his own, for himself. haha. anyway, the keewei and dhs doll stuff are inside jokes. hehe.

Day 2
We went to some school for jiao1 liu2 in the morning. and cos we had to perform, and 4 of our cellos were spoiled, we borrowed the school's cello. haha. OMG was the small performance bad. nevermind, shall not talk about it. after that, we were separated into classrooms to jiao1 liu2 with the students there. for cello there was only one student. haiz.. haha. and his name was...

JOHNSON!

Johnson is 18 years old this year and plays the cello, and apparently, hanyin dumped shaoyu and has since fallen head over heels for johnson! haha. sad thing was, he refused to play for us. haiz.. but anyway, after the whole jiao liu right, this jian4 hanyin hor, said she wanted to take 合照. ok! so she happily took out her camera and we happily crowded around johnson to take a photo. then this hanyin PURPOSELY went to SQUEEZE and stand next to him lah. she still pose "call me" somemore. haiya this ar..

Let me be nice and show you a picture of him.

The guy in red and white is Johnson, like, obviously. and the spastic looking person next to johnson is samuel, like, even more obvious. haha. and you see this johnson, his looks not bad right? and according to hanyin, he's cute lah. haha.

BUT

CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT KUEIFU AND ALOT OF OTHER GUYS SAY THAT IN THIS PICTURE SAMUEL IS MUCH MORE SHUAI THAN JOHNSON??!! kuei fu even said that samuel beats him hands down anytime lah! OMG! haha. at least ALL the s say Johnson shuai-er lah. haiz.. this shows guys' tastes in looks. sad.. sad..

after this interaction with johnson, hanyin has thus concluded that malaysian guys are cute.
... LOL. my brothers are CUTE!? With this theory in mind assuming all malaysian guys are cute, hanyin even wanted to fight with her sister for my brother lah, when she hasnt even seen him before. haiz.. lucky i showed her a photo of my brother soon enough. LOL.

oh ya.. after jiaoliu, we realised that when hanyin said she wanted to take 合照, its her and him ONLY. lol. and note: johnson's surname ISNT yeo. hahaha!

anyway, after jiao liu was concert lah. WHOO!! DYB MADE YET ANOTHER MIRACLE IN DYB HISTORY! we managed to use the unfamiliar cellos and played taiwan quite well! yay yay!

That night after the concert at 12plus, we cellists stayed up late to re-wrap the cellos again for another flight. but this time with the help of the agency people to wrap it properly and better lah. wahh.. 心痛. i see my already spoiled like nothing cello being squeezed and stuffed somemore, and having to go on board another plane again. haiz..

but anyway, its super symbolic lah. all the cellos were wrapped in newspapers also this time, and mine was wrapped in the ORBITUARY section!
-symbolism: my cello is as good as .
there was also foreshadowing can. on saturday when we stayed back to wrap cellos and on sunday before we set off, people KEPT knocking hitting and banging my head. super painful wan lah. but its like.. you know, banging and knocking.. my cello.. something bad happening. haiz.
oh. irony also have. that day, me zhiying and amelia stayed back all afternoon to labouriously wrap EVERYONE'S cellos. 9 in total. we were the last to leave CO room that day lah. and what happened in the end? 好心没好报, all three of our cellos spoiled.

nevermind. anyway, we were wrapping until like 3am, still not done yet, but then all the seniors kept telling us to go to sleep.. argh, but we dont want, so we keep protesting. haha. but in the end when we (guanyang samuel me mayping) finally gave in and went back. when in the lift, there was a toilet roll, so we came up with a brilliant idea. hahaha. we tore up the pieces and made 'i <3 u' with it, then we pressed the lift back to their floor, so when the lift door opens, they would think its us again, but instead, they'll see the i love you. HAHAHA!! but in the end we didnt get to see the expressions on their faces. haiz.. zhiying said chaihong took them and threw it away -.-

Day3
took another plane, but cellos were checked-in on the earlier flight. the new tourguide in KK was super weird. he laughs at himself!! hahaha! then me and mayping sitting at the back will always laugh when he laughs at his own jokes. LOL! so retarded lah.

after lunch we went to this other school in sabah. 崇正中学or something. First impression: scary. at first i thought they were some military school or what lah. one person started shouting commands, then all the students quickly lined up, hands behind back. then they all started shouting stuff also. haha. but turned out they were VERY friendly. haha. OH!!! and they have a SUPER COOL BASS! its white in colour and got fire painted on it. very nice lah. haha. everyone kept wanting to touch it. haha. then their library also siao wan, so many books. so scary. oh, that was part of jiao liu also lah.

anyway, activities aside. as the cellos were not with us the whole day right, the 红队people who had them told us that they've checked the cellos immediately when they alighted, and there was no further damage. unfortunately, either they didnt check properly, or they didnt check at all. (i think they didnt.. haha) cos my cello got somemore again. !!!!!!!!! now total got like 4 damaged areas plus the LONG down the back lah.

WHAT DOES AIR ASIA HAVE AGAINST ME AND MY BELOVED CELLO??!!

Day4
the same students from the sabah school took us out for lunch! haha. it was a super dangerous experience can. we were like crossing roads like theres no cars on it or something, figuratively speaking, cos there were ALOT of cars. SCARY. after lunch, we went back to the hotel and went for concert in this SUPER nice place. its the tallest building in KK, although standing at only 23 storeys high. ok, actually, we didnt perform in the tall building itself lah. we performed in the smaller building next to it, Auditorium Tun Raffae. haha.

cool right. haha. oh ya! DHSCO appeared on the newspaper there lah. even cooler right! haha. i took one copy back! haha.

moving on. haiz.. this concert wasnt good at all. shall not elaborate :)

that night.. whoa. noisy. lots of shouting during 检讨. shall not elaborate either :)
that night, no curfew, but we stayed up to wrap cellos anyway. haiz. this time no one told us to go to sleep, haha. but we wrapped till like 4am. after that went to jeenise's room to sleep for 1hr on rachel's bed. LOL. they didnt sleep at all.

Day5
took plane back to Senai. we unwrapped our cellos immediately after landing. mine, check for what. haha. then turned out that samuel took back amelia's cello by mistake. lol. then his still in KK. hahaha.

when we boarded the bus again, OH MAN! the same scary bus driver. i had totally clean forgotten about him already lah, until then again. haiz.. ahaha. after leaving the airport we went for lunch in a roadside hawker center and went back to singapore after that, this time bringing our luggage and cellos along through the customs :)

anyway.. since blogger's working already, i shall take this opportunity to upload photos. haha.

Cally's love for yigeng Landui year 2&3 Sec 3 Landui-ans!

so nice right? landui (:

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

i'm finally FREE!! i can finally SLEEP!!!

omg. 2 months never blog already. haha. shit, now forgot how to blog. LOL.

anyway, somehow in this SHORT 2 months, so many things are over.

maths common test
chem test
physics test
bio test
chem viva
geog test
HCL test
LA test
2 file checks
GONGYAN.
1 WHOLE TERM

all the test in this term are over, and all done quite badly. lol. how badly? lets just say i dont make it in the 75% that mrs hong wants us to be in. BLEARGH.

and GONGYAN! AAARRGGGGHHHH!!! cant believe gongyan is actually over. cant believe i was even finally part of it. cant believe i'm like also finally in DYB solo. lol. for 2 years we used to watch the seniors play cang shan with our mouths wide open, staring in awe. and finally, its OUR TURN!! BUT, its quite failure lah. i mean, all the songs also not played very well. nevermind. the more i say, the more depressed i get. haiz..

but...

I LOVE JI GUAN YU AND HONG LOU MENG!!!

oooh!! and MALAYSIA TRIP IS COMING UP!! i want to stay overnight in CO room! wahahahaha!!

stupid. i want to download MSN. cannot.
I want to go moot parliament!! and i dont care, i'm going. i'm not going to go for dazu tmr :P

my first time skipping dazu. WAHAHAHA.

random.