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Friday, October 27, 2006

i feel like i'm really heartless. nevermind.

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i really really regret this year. but now its too late for regrets. its the end of the school year, no more classes. why must i only get to know everyone better at the END OF THE YEAR?!!

why did interclass have to be at the end of the year?
why did class outings had to be after everything?
why do we only truly have fun after school ended?

now, when i genuinely experience how incredibly great 2G can really be through all the adversity and the joys that we went through together only at the end of the year, when i finally come to know that i had really loved this class all this while, when i seriously dont want to be in any other class but 2G, i then realise that its just too late. we have reached the inevitable day that had to come, the day whereby after which we could no longer be together, the day where we finally had to part.

then, i regret. how i wished it wasnt the end yet. how i wished we still had school, even if we had to go through boring ACC lessons or sleepy geog lessons, at least we would still be together, at least we could still see each other 5 days a week. now, when i feel like spending more time with everyone again, i cant! we don't have school anymore!!!! only through class outings can we see each other again, but its only a few times a month for short periods, with only a few people, and most of the time with the same bunch of people.

i guess throughout these 2 years, i had just been missing in action. although i was physically in 2G, my soul was still somewhere else. only until today i got see the 'real' side of them through really getting to know them, and not through what other people tell me about them. only until today i truly appreciate them being a part of my life.

shit.

where was i these 2 years?!!!! i was given big eyes since birth, and was given to me for a reason. why didnt i use them to my advantage?!! i should really open my eyes bigger, LARGER, to see everything more clearly, more deeply, on more surfaces, from more perspectives, and not just scrape the surface of them.

maybe i should also wear my glasses permanently all the time already, to help me see more things more clearly, see the expressions on people's faces so its not just a blur like now.

I WANT 2G!!!

"There'll be good times again for me and you
But we just can't stay together, don't you feel it too
Still I'm glad for what we had
And how I once loved you

But it's too late baby
Now it's too late
Though we really did try to make it
Something inside has died
And I can't hide, and I just can't fake it"