I ♥ Music

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

haiz.. i hate the holidays.

i find everything pointless now.. after my cello lesson today in the mrt, i was like.. suddenly thought to myself.. why am i playing the cello all of the sudden? i have never even thought of playing the cello last time. if you asked me last time to play the cello.. i would have said you siao. haha. then just now i was talking to some people on msn.. i suddenly thought to myself again.. why do i know them? when i picture myself with them, i feel... i'm not like them, like i dont belong with them.. since when did i start knowing them. haiz.. i guess i'm still like, stuck in the past. wayyyy in the past, ever since i went back to QNPS. haiz. i miss all my primary school friends and my primary school life, where eveything was so.. carefree. and i cant help but feel sad and sorry for the P6s this year. they have officially left QNPS and moved on to secondary school. haiz.. oh ya.. they getting back their PSLE results tomorrow!!! wahaha!! wonder how this year fared.. wonder what and who the highest PSLE score and scorer is for QNPS this year. wonder who and what are the top 10 for QNPS this year. wonder how much dillian and Jue Ying got. wonder if they can get into Nanyang and DHS... haha.

i don't feel like blogging anymore. cos theres nothing to blog about now. cos usually its like.. i lbog about what happened on a day.. but now, whats there to know. everythings the same for everyday. wake up, waste time doing nothing, eat waste time, eat, waste time, sleep. haiz.. unlike when we go to school. although we just go to school and study, at least we have our friends there and new things happen everyday. now its.. BLEARGH!

and to make things worse, ok, not worse, BORING, my father attempted to lock the channels that me and my brothers usually watch on TV!!! ITS THE HOLIDAYS!! WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU WANT TO PREVENT US FROM WATCHING TV?! i mean, if its during school term, can lah, cos we need to study. but now its the holidays!! its already sooooo boring, and you want to make it worse! HA! but luckily for us, he didnt manage to lock the channels! HAHA!! *phew* but if one day he does lock it, don't blame me if i go out more often.

ARGH!! and i hate being the older sibling!! stupid. have to take care of the younger ones. AND I HAVE TWO!! two stupid stubborn naughty mischevious devilish (i tell you, you can really see their horns poking out of their heads) brothers! why not a sister?! stupid. and yesterday i scolded my brother for fighting with each other and crying sooooooooo much and making soooo much noise just because he wants my maid to do something for him, and when my father came back from work he scolded me. fine. i shall really not "give a shit" about them anymore. let them fight till they really kill themselves. FYI, they threw things at each other when they fought, hard solid metal things. and fine, i shall not care and "turn a deaf" ear when they cry and make a lot of noise over nothing and disturb the neighbours and let them complain.

and i dont like planning. especially when its the holidays. ARGH. why do i have to make a time table for myself during the holidays?! cant i just do whatever i want whenever i want?! its the holidays!! let me just relax for once!! planning a time table, its like.. you're restrained and you feel like you're in a rush, cos after you do something you have to start on the next. URGH! if i just do what i want when i want, i just do what i want when i want.

i only plan when i really have important things to get done on time. like today! stupid! so rush. all because i overslept. haha. i was supposed to go for piano at 9am. but i overslept and woke up at 11! haha. so it was changed to 2.30pm. and yesterday my cello was switched to 4.15pm this afternoon. so i was like "die, got time or not" haha. so i planned everything out.. leave at 2, reach at 2.30, finish and leave at 3.30, take bus and mrt to eunos takes approx. 20-30mins. so just right. BUT SO STUPID! i reached my piano teacher's house at 2.40! so i was like.. oh die oh die. then when i went in, my teacher was still teaching another student!!! WAH!! then teach until 3!! so i thought.. wah die lah!! finish at 4, no time already! haha. so when playing that time i rushed through everything. but stupid!! of all lessons, teacher chose to teach me all the extra details of the pieces TODAY!! but luckily and i dunno why or how, lesson ended at 3.40. haha. so i rushed off to shangyin and reached on time. haha. its like, when i went to the bus stop, the bus just arrived, then when i went to the mrt station, the mrt also just arrived when i reached, then the traffic light turned red and green man appeared when i just walked to the road. haha. its like.. all waiting for me to go. haha.

oh ya.. haha. i dont like drowning anymore!! ok, maybe still a little, but not as much anymore. so bye bye! got new song already. haha.

haha. can't wait to go back to malaysia!!! YAY!! thats the only place other than QNPS where i feel that things actually have a point. but i dont feel i quite belong there too though. haha. sometimes just feel left out in the whole family, cos i dont really speak in chinese, and i'm not really outstanding in what i do, although sometimes what i do benefits everyone else or whatever, but... ok. nvm. haha. but anyway.. their results came out already.. and i'm glad they did well. and i'm surprised though.. that Sheau Hui did the best among all the others and not Jia
Wern. but he did very well too. only 1 A less. haha. and its malay compo, but hey, i dont even speak in malay and you had to write a compo. ahha.

ok. i'm hungry already. haha. gonna go eat now. my mission this holiday is to gain weight. haha. bye.