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Monday, September 26, 2005

yay!! omg.. when my father came back from malaysia, he really bought me the MuVo!! haha.

then yesterday Nicc came over to help me with it. haha. then we did a bit of science and then we went to play again. haha. then sophia cme over also, to take home the things that she left here at the same time. then we did history. then we went to see SOMEONE's blog. haha. so funny. then nicc went home. but sop stayed and did her HE. then we watched confessions of a teenage drama queen on TV, then she went home.

haiz.. today was such an *URGH* day. everyday i had to wear an annoying loose sock and 1 normal sock to school!; 3 times in a day!; and i just counted, i climb up at least 82 steps of the stairs every single day, but today i climbed up to the 4th level in school 2 times already!! haha. haiz..

haiz.. gotta study for exams, but just cannot bring myself to it. haiz.. tomorrow art exam part 2. wahhh!!! need correction FLUID and a BETTER BLACK PEN!! haiz.

sian.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

IF I DONT REALLY KNOW YOU AND DONT WANT TO KNOW YOU, PLEASE GO AWAY. SHOOO!! DUST'S LOVER, YOU KNOW WHO.. (this does NOT have anything to do with dust, i just dont want that person i'm referring to to know who dust's lover is. haha.)

haiz.. i suddenly forgot what i wanted to blog about. right. ya. so scary, yesterday night i dreamt that i broke my cello!! as in the whole finger board came out!! and the whole body was crushed and beyond repair!! but the worst thing is... ITS THE SCHOOL'S CELLO!! but luckily it was a dream lah, but it was SOOOO real!! i was actually panicking and sweating... and didnt dare to tell my parents that i accidentally broke the cello cos they had to buy another cello to replace the school's, but that was all in the dream lah of cos.

haha. then luckily i was awoken by a phone call by wenbo, asking me the timetable of the EOYs. haiz. then after telling her, i fell back asleep. but then, a few minutes later another phone call came. this time it was from nicc, asking me the SAME thing. haha. then after that i went back asleep again. guess what time i woke up?? 2.30++pm haha.

haiz. then after that at around 5+pm me and my mother went to pick up my COUSIN'S cello from repair. haha. its finally mended and glued back. was told that they had cracked the whole thing apart and stuck a nail in to hold them together and stronger and stick it back with glue. haiz.. then the knob thingy is better now, i guess.

haiz.. my mother's out to pick up my father from the bus station now.. haha. so funny. its their anniversay today.. and my mom was complaining that my dad forgot about it. ahah. so funny.

oh ya, then just now at about 5+ my dad called me to ask the price of the muvo!! haha. ooh..

haiz.. now so sian.

urgh. now then i know that 1G guys + nicole are so competitive. nicc dont be angry at me. but no wonder their results are so good. competing and pushing themselves so hard. haiz. look at benjamin's nick : *sIGh*....MUS...BEAT..NICOLE...AND...BING...HOWE!!!..Tidus......X....Yuna.......*SigH*........sOrRoW???.......oR....nOT?....!?!?
urgh. i mean like.. just do your best lah. compete with yourself. challenge yourself, not others. you mean that let say in 1 test everyboday else got 60+ marks and you got 61. oh! your the highest! you're very happy? but 61 is still a B4...? challenge yourself to do the best you can, what you are able to do. who knows you can achieve much higher than you do now? but actually competitions are good in some way still though. epecially in 1G. you dont compete, you dont go anywhere. everybody's marks are like, so high lah. you dont push yourself to do as good as them, you fall behind and die. urgh. but dont ask me how i get my marks. really. i was shocked.

haiz.. but next year, too bad for benjamin. wenbo's gonna move to canada and nicc's probably going to nanyang. haiz..lose to competitors.

so sad nicc's going to nanyang. duno what i'm going to do without nicc. before school, every recess, every test or exam... haiz..

feeling very bored now. duno what to do. haiz.

haiz.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

ooh.. i just realised that my father went to malaysia today. to collect mine and his IC - -". haha. haiz. sian.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

ARGGHHHHH!!! STUPID!! WHY LIKE THAT??!! THE LAST 2 TIMES ME AND WEN BO TRIED COOKING THE STIR FRY DONGFEN, IT WAS SUPER NICE LOR!! THEN TODAY EXAM WAS A TOTAL DISASTER!! IT DIDNT TASTE AS NICE AS THE LAST 2 TIMES, AND TEACHER MINUS QUITE A LOT OF MARKS WHEN WE COOKING THAT TIME LOR! STUPID!

THEN MY TEST ALSO SO LAN!! DIE LAH!! I THINK THIS TIME THE TEST AND EXAM WILL PULL MY TOTAL MARKS DOWN... HAIZ.

haiz.. AAHHH!!!! then now got 2 more people die of dengue already.WAHHH!! die lah like that, singapore.each day got around 100 people diagnosed of dengue. siao. so scary. each day leh!! i think. haha.

haiz. then these few days, or rather, now, blogging seems not to be one of the 'must do's' whenever i come online. thats why i dont blog as often anymore.

oh ya, speaking of blogging. OMG!! OP!! wahh!!! die lah!! i went up that time i was so nervous i stop here stop there wan.. even wen bo say i like not prepared lor.. haiz..

seems like the 2nd semester my marks of every subject drop like siao already. scared i even top ten also cannot get this time.. AAHHH!!! haiz.. then let my father down.. haiz.. i think better start studying already. serious. less than 20 days till exam!! haiz.. but it'll be GREAT when its after the exams. haiz. but that STUPID home econs is on that day, which spoils everything! if only can like MEP people lor.. then that day no need go school. wah. so good. haha.

haiz. k lah. father come home already.
bb

Monday, September 19, 2005

urgh.. i'm like dreading every single thing now. theres starting to be a problem with me. myself. haiz.. and i realised i dont laugh as easily now. and i also realised that its been a very long since i last laughed a good hearty laugh. haiz.

dread soccer. theres no point in playing now.. if you know what i mean, but you dont. i keep everything to myself nowadays. dont feel like telling anyone. cant anyway.

haiz. and i really dont want to be in the soccer team if i am chosen lahh. i'll only either run around laughing like a crazy person, making all the 'jian jiao sheng yin' (as Tan TG said), or stand around and not really participate, which will mean that i'm not contributing, causing the team not to perform well, and thus 'hai' everyone else. haiz.

haiz.. my father's scolding my brothers again.

oh ya. weird. today when my father came back, when he saw me, the first thing he said to me was you know what?? 'wheres the zen nano plus?' haha. then i was like, shocked. then i told him, 'gor gor told you ar?' then he didnt say anything, but i just showed him all the information lah. then he checked it out lah. haha. then as expected, he got a bit jealous. haha. he told me 'hmmm.. everything almost same as mine what, only that dont have the radio and the voice recorder things.' haha. then i asked him 'how much did you buy yours for?' then he say 'last time very expensive, now no more already.' haha. but i guess it should be ok lah..*cross fingers*

haiz..urgh. tomorrow art EXAM and lit test!! wahh!! art!! i'd better go practise drwing the thing later. lit!! i tell you i'm gonna fail this one again. ahh!! then i havent re-read it yet!! was busy reading another book that my bro's friend lent him. haiz. die. feel like reading it now!!

WAHHH!! exams are coming already!! so fast!! this week is like the last week of this WHOLE YEAR that we will even have tests again!! and after that will be dunno what then EXAMS already!! omg!! really cant believe it. spent 1 year in dunman high already, 1 year with 1G already. whoa. now that i see it, really cant believe it. me, a normal happy-go-lucky student in ABC primary school with a faint, unbrightish future ahead of me, actually getting into my dream school since P5. wow. i cant even believe that i even had a goal. haha. wow. i really must liked dhs alot last time. seeing whatever i've done to get myself into dhs. so lucky, actually got the 20+ vacancies out of the whole other lot of people who appealed also.

haiz. anyway.. nowadays, its so freaky. whenever i fall asleep unconciously, as in, not knowing that i even fell asleep, let alone even knowing that i'm actually asleep, i will dream really WEIRD things. and that's VERY scary.. i will always dream about the real things that are happening in my life. and i will dream that i get into deep trouble doing those things, or not doing those things. or sometimes, the scariest is that i WILL dream that i accidentally fell asleep, like what is happening in real life, and after i wake up exactly on the same spot i was sleeping in real life(in the dream), my life will sort of continue, and bad things will happen like i forgot to do something which i needed to do in real life at that time, then i will start to really panic, as in those kind of situations where your concentration span will shorten and not know whats going on around you just that you are panicking. urgh. scary, then when i'm about to be punished or when i'm about to face the consequences, i suddenly wake up again*phew*. but its scary lah. then sometimes i cannot even tell the difference if its a dream or its real life. haiz. urgh, this is probably in my dream also. bleargh. if it is, when i wake up, i'm not gonna type his post all over again. haha.

haiz. think i better stop here now. dont think i'm gonna blog soon. seldom blog anymore.. wah, but its actually 4 days only. 4 days i didnt blog and it feels like a mighty long time. haha. haiz. life is getting too stressing and complicating for me. dont know why, dont know how. doubt it is for you. but it ALWAYS is for me. even in primary school. during parent teacher conferences, my mother always asked the teachers if they give us a lot of homework cos i seem to be stressing alot most of the time (although i dont look like it), then obviously the teachers will say no cos they really dont. the problem lies in me. i dont know why, where, how, or what. it just is. haiz. but weird, these daysnot much work anymore what, but i seemed more stressed. probably cos there ISNT ANY work at all that makes me so... urgh, nothing to do. but really, i DO prefer if i'm more.. busy with work all the time. like in primary 6. wah.. a lot of work to do wan.. everytime come back from school, slack, then after dinner start doing homework, then do until 12, 1+am then sleep. haha. then at least my brain is working all the time. just like during tests. when i do the questions, i didnt even know i even KNOW how to do them. haiz.

oh ya. speaking of dinner just now. i just remembered that i havent eaten my dinner today. i FELL ASLEEP JUST NOW AFTER I CAME BACK FROM SCHOOL, AFTER I HAD MADE PLANS ON WHAT TO DO FOR TODAY!! and i dreamt whatever i said just now, and when i woke up in my parents room, i thought it was like, past midnight already, then i thought my parents were sleeping outside cos i was in their room. but luckily when i checked the time, it was only 7.24pm. then.. WAH!! 7.24 already arr?!! haha. haiz.

k lah. really stop here already lah. cant believe you even read till here. i bet you skip and come straight to the end. haha. haiz. k lah. bye.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Urgh!! nowadays no time to blog already. haiz. busy and STRESSED like siao! yaya, according to mrs wong theres no such thing as stress. right.. haha!! so funny!! then mrs wong told us her CCA last time. omg!! i wondered what made her to be in this shape noww.. haha. then she was also from malaysia.. okayy... haha.

haiz. ARGHH!!! for the past few days of last week and this week i've been sleeping at 1+am!! and yesterday was the earliest i've slept. 12!! haiz.. although i everytime also sleep this late, but these few days the lack of sleep is catching up with me! haha. then yesterday after i reached home i fell asleep. then i had this REALLY weird dream. seeing 2 crescent moons in the sky. 1 black and 1 white, with the sky being dark blue. and my house having a back door, and me being able to go into my neighbour's house..?! with nicole and amanda?!! and them tricking me, filming me on a TV program secretly with me being in the dark?! and seeing gunfights from the backyard??!! omg.. that was scary. then i forgot what happened already. then when i woke up, i was late for my piano lesson already!! haha. these weird dreams must have been because of all the stress..

haiz.. then these few days get angry very easily. haiz. but at least the chinese peer teaching is finally over.. ahah. then when we presenting that time, the class was.. surprisingly quite enthusiastic. which was good and bad. urgh. good cause they listen and participate lah of course. bad cause THEY ASK TOO MUCH QUESTIONS!! and dunno why the presentation got SOOOO MANY MISTAKES LEHH!! die lah that part. then that LIU also, i think she purposely ask all the difficult questions wan. stupid. haha. then the quiz right.. luckily prida answer 1 question wrongly, then we get to eat the extra MnM. haha.

haiz. I WANT THE MUVO CHAMELEON!! i dare not tell my father. haha. cos later too nice already my father jealous. haha. yes, he gets jealous VERY EASILY. he's like the most petty guy i know lah, except for DANIEL of cos. ahah. oh ya.. then yesterday when mdm john didnt come right (she EVERYTIME on MC wann!!), me, ros and prida wanted to see who's the most petty guy in our class. haha. then we went to try them lah. so funny!! prida tore a small piece of paper right, then pass it to me. then i pretend to run to christine, then when i behind eustance, i put the paper on his head. WAHH!! SO OBVIOUS leh!! its like.. his short hair is like a BIG PLAIN FIELD, then the paper is so outstanding lor! haha.. then i was laughing like crazy! haha. then daniel saw it and flicked it away.. then we were laughing so loudly, of cos he know it was us lah. haha. but he just frowned then nothing already. haha.

then we tried nicholas. we told him he had something on his shirt.. he just said "har har har..." ahha. then we tried daniel.. wah!! we only like told him the same thing right, he so angry already lor! siao wan. haha. then GJY, we go 'deform' his chocolate, then we told hm, he just frown a bit, then he walk away like nothing happened. hahaha!! so obviously DANIEL is the most petty wan rite.. haiz.

stupid OP. my calculations were wrong. haha. only 11 people presented to day!! much lesser than what i calculated, which was 17. haha. cos yue sing lor. she TOTALLY didnt prepare AT ALL lah!! and her reg no. was what?? 4?! siao. then she went up that time, she talked about she and her friend going back to her primary school during teacher's day. wah.. then she so bad lor. her school 好心 go buy a crystal ball and put it in the canteen, she and her friend go that time, must go and break it!! wah!! spoil the reputation of dunman high!! somemore go out that time, what, shirt tuck out, clothes all dirty like anything cos they fell into the drain.. hair so long never tie. haiz.. 丢我们的脸.

haiz.. but my OP i still duno if i should really talk about blogging lor. blogging is nothing wan lah.. or at least my presentation is.. haiz..

still feeling quite sleepy now. but at least today got nothing much to do. except maths test tmr. haiz. i think i'm gonna fail. INTEREST!! wah!! i'm not even interested lor.. haiz. then history test also. i think i fail already. i think i lift too much lor!! my mind suddenly blanked out and all i did was write down what was in the source.. haiz.. die lah.

wahh!! then shangyin stop until after exams!! AAHHH!! then fen zu also no more already.. wah!! then cello exam next year february.. but teacher never really say anything about it yet.. haiz..

stupid.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

haiz.. later my younger bro's birthday party.. dont wanna go down and be part of it. dont want to entertain any guests. thats why i'm up here hiding, playing the com. but it only takes a few more minutes and someone will come up here and scold me and tell me to go down. haiz..

haha. yesterday i was at my father's friend's house.. having a potluck or whatever.. then it was at serangoon lah. then hor, i've been there o many times and i'm such an idiot. it was SSSOOOOO near daniel's house and i never knew. haha. the bus stop which me and christine took home from daniel's house was just across the street!! haha. haiz..

haiz.. people are slowly streaming into the house now. haha. bleargh. oh ya. then right.. theres a family who came lah, and with a son. quite old already. then guess what.. he was my cousin. and i didnt even know him. i dont even know whether he's from malaysia or singapore wan..haiz.

then last time also. i had a cousin whom i didnt even know i had. and she was even good friends with christine!! what is this! haiz... and now i come to know another one. -.-

haiz.. crazy.. who knows.. maybe one fine day i may learn that nicole is my cousin also. haha.

haiz. so bored..

wah.. so long already.. no one come up here, except for my brother.. he's waiting to use the com. haiz.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

STUPID. SO STUPID. PLAIN STUPIDITY!! i rushed off for my piano lesson just now for nothing! absolutely nothing! i rushed off early to my teacher's house, only to wait outside the house till 1 hr later when i found out that it was a term holiday and i had wasted around $1.40 for bus and mrt fares. urgh!

omg.. i suddenly miss all those people whom i knew but lost touch with. they may or may not have forgotten about my existence..

haiz.. i was 'blog surfing' through my primary school friend's and some ahs people blogs cause i was trying to find my other friend's blog. then they are all AHS wan mah.. so if lucky i may find the blogs of other people whom i know also lah. wah.. so good lehh

at first i found christine's good friend from her primary school's blog. Yuen Lam.. right christine? then i searched somemore and found a friend whom i made when i was P5 during a leadership camp held in my school!! Gina!! i think she should not have forgotten me yet lahh. sec 1 registration (in ahs) that time i saw her and wan ling, and they saw me and recognised me also.. haha. so nice. wah, then so good also, gina became a counsilor. good for her.. prefect in primary school also anyway.. so good. hahas.

wah.. then so happens everyone i know from different places are somehow in one way or another connected to each other.. Gina and Wan Ling are in SJAB and Wan Ying knows them.. haha.then all of them know tabitha.. haha. and Chin Meng of course..then theres Yunica (OG16), although i dont really know her and i doubt that she even knows me in the first place, Clara and wanying knows her, but obviously cos they ended up in the same class.. haha. then there's also cheryl mun in the same class also i think.. funny, cos when i knew her through OG16, i didnt know she was clara ng's friend also. haha. until i forgot how and when i knew, but it didnt take long lah.

haiz.. all ahs wan.. to think that i appealed out of ahs to dhs, only to find myself SO BLOODY NEAR ahs again now!! less than 5 mins walk away. haiz.. but i still like it here in dhs, although its gonna move to buona vista 2 years later.. but at least theres dhp!! so its 2 yrs in the old compound, 2 yrs in former RJC and another 2 yrs in the new compound! so evenly spread out. haha.

haiz.. i'm feeling mad.. mad as in angry + crazy.. and beware, thats a really bad concoction of your feelings. makes one go extremely crazy.. and scary too. so if at anytime your that mad, best is not to talk to anyone. stupid.

tomorrow gona go shopping and cook with wen bo. yay. haha.

oh ya. and i havent done any of my homework yet.
-art
-chinese copy cheng yu thing
thats pretty much all there is.. oh ya, and all the tests next week too. urgh.. didnt bring back my history textbook. oh and theres fenzu this friday. yay. can tune my cello and practise the stupid thing which i cannot remember the notes.

plain stupidity it was today.
fullstop. end of post.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

wah.. i realised i used 'sian' as a post title for a total of 5 times already!! haha.

but really lah.. my life is SSSOOOOO boring... nothing to do everyday.. especially during holidays!! urgh.. thats the worst thing now. haha

ok.. so about my piano exam.. I'M PRETTY SURE I WILL FAIL!! my scales was okayy, miraculously. then was my first piece!! wah!! among all the times i played my 1st piece, that was the worst!! AAHHHH!! then my ornaments all cannot playyyyy!!!! really really really VERYVERYVERY bad!! REALLY!! then my 2nd piece was bad also. my rhythm all wrong!! stupid. then my 3rd piece.. my worst fears came true.. AAHHH!!! then middle part where i always fumble, i fumbled like SIAOOOO! at home before going for the exam i tried playing it 1 last time, twice in fact. both times i didnt fumble lehh!! i was so happy lor! then exam that time i fumbled like siao!! then must stop.. then continue. wah!! sure fail wan lah!!

then sight reading, same as every single year. played as usual, felt that it was not that bad, bad results come out that time, expect to see a fail.

then aural.. it was the weirdest thing.. i answered everything, feeling confident that it was the right answer.. but i just dunno why it IS that answer in the first place. haha.

haiz.. so overall will fail lah.

hmph! so angry.. ~~jealous actually X)~~ not fair!! christine got an PINK ZEN NEEON for her birthday!! her parents really very nice lehh.. they're probably the nicest most loving parents i've ever seen. seriously. christine so lucky lor..

haiz.. going for my piano lesson later. urgh.. wait till i tell my teacher what happened during the exam.. she'll.. aiya, dunno what she will do lah. anyway.. i also dunno what we will do later... i dont have the next grade exam pieces yet, i dont even know what grade i will be taking. cause my brother skipped grade 7 after doing grade 6, despite FAILING it too!! haiz.. probably do theory later on lah.. wha.. so long never do theory already.. stupid.. i'm so far behind on theory anywayy.

oh ya.. haha!! i learnt new ba wei on cello already!! haha. but so dificult to remember the notes lor.. AHH!! next lesson i'm going to die already.. the only way is to memorise the fingering, but thats not gonna help much in future. haha.

anyway.. gotta go already. gonna be late.

oh ya.. they FINALLY built a PROPER path across the huge filed outside my house!! haha!! yay!!

buhbye!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg.omg!!!!! TOMORROW IS DOOMSDAYY!!! DIE.DIE.DIE.DIE.DIE.DIE!!!!!!!!! I'M GONNA FAIL!! MY 1ST AND 2ND PIECE ARE AVERAGE, 3RD PIECE WILL FLOP! SCALES IF I'M LUCKY I MAY PASS, SIGHT READING FAIL (i always did)!! AURAL IF THE EXAMINER NICE, HOPEFULLY HE OR SHE WILL NOT ASK ME DIFFICULTS QUESTIONS.. HAHA.

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! BUT I'LL STILL DIE ANYWAYY!! MAY PING AND NICHOLAS AND BENJAMIN FINISHED THEIRS ALREADY!! THEIR'S WERE OKAYY!! BUT I'M GONNA DIE!! LUCKY THEM!! OR MAYBE THEY ARE GOOD BUT I'M JUST NOT. MAYBE I'M NOT MADE FOR PIANO. MAYBE I'M NOT EVEN MADE TO LEARN MUSIC!! SO I SHOULD GIVE UP CELLO TOO. COS I HAVENT PRACTISED SINCE LAST WEEK!! AND I DUNO HOW I'M GONNA CARRY ON COS NOW I REALISE AND AGREE WITH JOEY THAT THE CELLO IS TOO BIG FOR ME! AND I SHOULD PLAY THE VIOLIN. NO. I'M NOT EVEN MADE FOR MUSIC. HAIZ..

i'm gonna fail tmr. wish me luck that i dont.

die.